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Posted on 2009.06.11 at 01:16
this is an update for my list of deal breakers:

32. hates it when i sing in the car
33. hates when i rub his ears.

that is all


One of the most beautiful things i've ever witnessed

Posted on 2009.06.07 at 00:46
Current Mood: enthralledenthralled
To hold you in time
While we were dancing
Early hours
Drunken days finally ended
And the streets turned for a pillowcase
Then I fumbled our good lock
Then the ecstasy turns to rising light
Through our windowpane
Now I'm gone
I left flowers for you there


she left

Posted on 2009.05.16 at 02:12
Current Mood: exhaustedexhausted
Current Music: burnt cds
Jacquline rose paulsen

you are the best friend i have ever had. be safe. be good and create beautiful things. you mean more to me than anyone ever has. thank you.

see you soon
love with all of my heart and soul,


I wish i thought of this

Posted on 2009.05.12 at 03:17
Current Location: jacques
Current Mood: restlessrestless
Current Music: animal collective

smoking baby

My life as told by Steve Martin

Posted on 2009.05.08 at 01:06
Current Location: ma house
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
Current Music: adele...still
These words were written by steve martin, they were arranged by me to tell a/my/your/our story. Enjoy.

Chapter 1
All day long, I look into stranger’s eyes and ask them what they want. I wait for them to ask me what I want, but they never do. I set the plates down in front of them, and for a second, I close my eyes and wait for a touch on the hand that never comes

There's someone out there for everyone - even if you need a pickaxe, a compass, and night goggles to find them.

Chapter 2
Are you the kind of person that takes time to get to know, and then once you get to know them... they're fabulous?

A kiss may not be the truth, but it is what we wish were true.

So, I can either hurt now or hurt later.

How is it possible, he thinks, to miss a woman whom he kept at a distance so that when she was gone he would not miss her. Only then does he realize that wanting part of her and not all of her had hurt them both and how he cannot justify his actions except that... well... it was life.

Why is it that we don't always recognize the moment when love begins but we always know when it ends?

Sitting there at that moment I thought of something else Shakespeare said. He said, "Hey... life is pretty stupid; with lots of hubbub to keep you busy, but really not amounting to much." Of course I'm paraphrasing: "Life is a tale told by an idiot, full of sound and fury, signifying nothing."

So now I will wait for a man who will stand before me at arm’s length, and I will hand him unimaginable pain. And he will stand neither moving forward or move back. Then I will hand him unimaginable joy. And he will stand neither moving forward nor moving back. Then and only then, will I slit myself from here to here, open up my skin and close him into me.

Chapter 3
Im an okay guy, by the way.

Are you the kind of person that takes time to get to know, and then once you get to know them... they're fabulous?

All I'm saying is that, when I'm around you, I find myself showing off, which is the idiot's version of being interesting.

but all I could think was wonderful, wonderful, wonderful, wonderful, wonderful, and most wonderful and yet again, wonderful.

A woman needs to be held, even, and science has shown this, if its with someone she doesn't care about. Protective hormones are released, and the amount of hormones released depends on the degree to which she is held. The first and best is the complete surround. He wraps you in both arms, whispers how beautiful you are. Second best is the 'arm around.' He is next to you but with one arm around you. Third is he's just next to you on his elbow, but he rests his hand on your stomach and looks at you. Fourth is you snuggling up to him with your head on his chest, while he looks away into space. But when the first best happens, you feel completely, wonderfully like a woman.

on the day your plane was to leave, if I had the power, I would turn the winds around, I would roll in the fog, I would bring in storms, I would change the polarity of the earth so compasses couldn't work, so your plane couldn't take off.

and the beat goes on


I can't expose enough people to this

Posted on 2009.04.29 at 01:23
It was something which announced itself;
a chill breath that seemed to issue from some vast cavern wherein discords wailed.
there came over her the acute longing which always summoned into her spiritual vision the presence of her beloved one,
overpowering her at once with a sense of the unattainable.

The Awakening
our very own Kate chopin


Hypothetically speaking

Posted on 2009.04.28 at 14:31
Current Location: hatcher
Current Mood: hopefulhopeful
Current Music: adele
I don't know if it is because I am an actor that I am constantly looking at situations and reactions to situations in a hypothetical way.

It may be because I am a coward and I can only bring myself to ask "what if" instead of committing to a course of action.

It may be that if I can come up with enough alternate endings then I can replace my memories with what i didn't have the courage to do, and they in turn will become my history.

It may be that I am just a dreamer who is unsatisfied with the restrictions of the reality of the world I live in so i create these scenarios so I don't become too bitter.

But lately i find myself asking "what if" more often than why not.


what if I kicked you in the face right now?
What if my leg was long enough to kick you in the face right now?
What if I screamed at the top of my lungs the next time someone asked for a bowl of lemons with their water?
What if I directed and starred in the show instead of waiting to find a director?
What if I had enough faith in someone else to play the part?
What if you stayed?
What if I drove to the airport and ran onto the runway and your plane had to be grounded?
what if I didn't get arrested when I committed the afore mentioned hypothetical situation because the arresting officers still think about the one who got away?
What if I left without ever looking back?
What if I showed up at your door?
What if I had the courage to do all of the things I dream about?

and the beat goes on


uhhuh thats right

Posted on 2009.02.18 at 15:06
Current Mood: okayokay
now is the only time i have to become the woman i want to be. so im making a list.
cause thats what i do

i want to be independent
i want to create
i want to be self motivated
i want to love immensely
i want to love myself
i want to file my own taxes
i want to read poetry
i want to sing
i want to perform
i want to be the best actress that ever lived

i need you like i need air
but if you werent here id just hold my breath.

smoking baby

this is about to get real emo

Posted on 2008.03.01 at 09:54
Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: bright eyes
bad actors with bad habits
some sad singers they just play tragic
and the phone's ringing
and the van's leaving
lets just keep touching
lets just keep singing

girl crush

olly olly ox in free

Posted on 2008.01.26 at 16:40
Current Mood: quixoticquixotic
Current Music: sad mix tape side
let it in
let it all in
it's everywhere
all around you
so much beauty
so much love
so many miles
open your eyes and let it all in
let it marinate
it's all yours
everything is for you
the clouds
the green
the kisses
the dreams
the love is all yours
open your arms and let it in
feel the air and love someone

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